For past few months, I have been working hard to resolve all outstanding issues in my personal life. I hoped to do two things: Get a house deal done and also to sort out wrinkles in my relationships. I failed in both. 😦 Until now.
At night, I could not sleep even with a tired body. A skin analysis test revealed that I had started developing dark circles. I fervently hoped at nights that someday someone would invent an anesthesia for the troubled heart and mind. I thought best way to be in peace would be to get shot straight through aching heart or throbbing temple. It was bad.
My parents were visiting. That should have been a good thing. But they had a business for their visit and And they were doing that business for me. They were doing their best to finish it. However, I couldn’t tell my parents about the mental turmoil I faced and I couldn’t find peace within. When they left last weekend, I felt worse.
Those of you, who have been reading my blog, know that I wanted to buy a house, I came close to doing a house deal. It went bust due to various reasons. 😦
As if this was not enough, I dropped my phone inside water tub. My handset was working shakily when I started it after heating it slightly by the candle. However, I needed my phone to work immediately. My parents were traveling thousand miles away. What if they want to contact me?
I rushed to phone repair vendors with my best buddy. But they said they can not work on it unless phone is dried. I exchange my precious phone with one from my buddy. This generous friend of mine took mine nonfunctional handset and also dried it with hair dryer. 🙂 This smiley is there because drying your water-logged handset with hair dryer is also harakiri. Here is the link to wiki that explains you why. The phone refuses to work now.
Good thing is I am still with a phone and my friend will have to fend for himself till a new handset is bought (he already has to buy one to upgrade his) or my handset is repaired. My phone will be repaired for 1500 bucks. And to top it, I have lost all personal data on phone. Nothing will be recovered. 😦
First thing I did was to get myself a haircut and kinda change my look. I decided to meet that date I was not sure of earlier. My date turned out to be a very pleasant one. This was a handsome guy who had remembered me from the time I was a ugly, skinny teenager. This knowledge was very pleasant and motivating to me. This sweet guy does not know about my blog. He left for London with promises of friendship.
I decided to live all my dreams that I had been holding back because I was waiting for a trigger. By trigger I mean, I always thought if this happened, I will go on and do this. Not any more, I will not put a condition for keep things I want in life. I will do everything I want, irrespective of the fact my expected trigger happens or not. Things are pleasant in life now. I can see the light in the tunnel. 🙂
I will soon publish an quarterly update of my personal resolutions of this year. I know, I have failed the ones related to blogging. But I have managed to make progress on some others. I will let you know those in my later post.
Guys, just let me get on with some new, important things in life. Once done, I will write about decisions that made me happy. I will soon be back with my public interest posts. I hope I would not be long. 🙂
P.S: A worrisome thing that I have noticed is that I can’t seem to remember any personal chores in my life without a To-Do list. I have started using Google Calendar and kinds of sticky notes. Does that happen to you guys as well?